Office politics

Death in the most interesting variation. Most people would have thought that small companies are like a little family with little need for office politics. It would seem that i've thought wrongly. Even friends who claim so are merciless in their own agenda. I am in a word, dissapointed.

I would understand if someone tries to backstab me so that he/she could advance her career further. Though i would not be happy, atleast i would understand. It's after all a dog eat dog world, to each his/her own (survival).

What i do not understand is how petty arguments between bosses and colleagues (who is turning rebellious because she is planning to leave [1]) would end up having to use me as implements of vengeance. My bosses wants me to take over my colleague's project because they're unhappy with my colleague. My colleague, on the other hand, asks me not to get help from her since my bosses 'feels' that i could do the job. Both parties seemed to be acting on emotional impulsion.

Since the universe revolves around me, the most pitiful and innocent would of course be me. And this evening, i would embark on a long journey to KL, to face the customers, to smile at them weakly and say "I haven't got a clue as to what is going on.", to suffer whatever emotional manipulation the customer would implement on my dissapointing pressence, to suffer whatever additional politics that exists between the two companies, and to feel bad about myself. Don't you find it all very exciting?

But hey, i get to travel in the job wor, so i am very happy. Not.

Mood : I am ready to leave whether anot there is another job for me to go to.

[1] I also going to leave wat, so i should try to be nasty also is it?